not listening

In the darkness of the night, flames of fire burn in fright.
Running quickly from the cause. Breathless, but no time to pause
Then in the absence of any light, somehow all is clear tonight
With no more trees to obstruct my view, everything that I see is true.
But the more I see the less I know, I find out more the deeper I go.
The wilderness that held my fear, is burning up inside me, dear
Echoes of past screams (pleaseletmego).. something I no longer know.
And to think that I did somewhat care - about you? It is a sad affair.
You judge me for what I cannot stop, and just like that, you let me drop.

But not this time.

This time the bells of fate do chime.
Not in your favour, but rather, in mine.
For now that I have become aware
Of all your lies, you will not dare
To repeat the mistakes that you once made
with me; but I do not intend to make you afraid.
I will only hiss words that you will never again hear
Yes, my past memories are all still very clear;
they will never fade. Tears fall as you ask me why....
I don't know. But I will tell you it is useless to cry.
From experience, I know that there is really no need
Bitter as the tears may be, at least you do not bleed.
Your heart is not mangled, torn up inside
which leaves me with no option but to hide
from the world. I have nothing to offer. I simply feel cold.
Inside still just a little child not listening to what I am told.