Free at Last

It’s so touching to receive a gift from your mother.

I feel as if for the longest time my goal in life has been to ultimately destroy myself. Seeing that someone could take the time and effort to put together a package for myself to enjoy is overwhelming. Somebody loves me enough to put together a bundle of things that they believe will make me happy – somebody drove to deliver the package to me. Somebody in this world loves me.

I feel so selfish; I feel so guilty for being so consumed in my own world for so long – there is so much to feel, to experience, to learn and all this time I have been trapped by myself.

LET ME GO.

LET ME GO.

LET ME GO.

I feel so confined in this one-dimensional world that I have created for myself that I have forgotten what it means to live life. I am so constrained in a world of grey that I have neglected to see the colours that surround me. I want to feel; to breathe; to live. I want to see; to learn; to be. I want to share a passion for living – I want to make each day count towards the happiness of everyone, MYSELF INCLUDED.

This is an overwhelming experience of FEELING - of EMOTION.
It is as if I learned what it is to FEEL again. I have become alive.

This is the rebirth of my Self –
I have awoken from the stupor that I have been in for the longest time.
I will now live, breathe and be exactly what it is that I want to be.
I will now create a life worth living.
Hello world.